Countdown

to my vacation! I have 4 days to go :)
I need sleep and sun and fun and plenty of food and wine.... and some serious shopping!

Have been working hard lately, well not hard but a lot. I really don't like my job at the coffeeshop. My boss is rather odd. She is very much "my way or the highway". If I do something she can just redo it so that it's done her way. And she actually cleans empty sodacans before she throws them away... Now that's just crazy!

Spent midsummer with Mr S and a couple of his friends. They had the sweetest two cats and a baby that they put to bed at around 8. We had the traditional herringplate and the we did some barbecue. They live right downtown but just on the waterfront in a really nice apartment. We had schnapps. I usually drink 2 of them a year: one on Christmas eve's lunch and one on Midsummer but this year I, to Mr S's content, had at least 5. It was not good at all actually and I got pretty drunk. As we were leaving, I was working the next day, Mr S started looking quite worried when I tumbled down the stairs in my high heels. He kept telling me: "Darling, maybe we should wait for the elevator" I just giggled (have a tendency to do that when I'm drunk) and stumbled into the cab and fell asleep. I woke up just as we stopped outside our place. As we came in I had apparently promised Mr S a massage but I fell asleep with my clothes on so I owe him one...

I finished the Music quiz for the boatride yesterday and tried it on Mr S. He found it being quite difficult. I may have to make some changes tonight.
On midsummer he told me (I have very vague memories) that he will say yes if I were to propose to him. I suppose that was some hint but I blame it on the booze...

My apartment, or our apartmenthunting, is not really progressing at all at the moment. When I come back from France I'm going to get my life back on track again.
I'm going to lose some weight, start working on my company, find a fierce job and a cool apartment. Or at least one of the four...

Off to lunch with Mr S now.

Take care!
/E

Song of the day: Don't talk just kiss - Right Said Fred (Thanks to Jezz)

I'm not asking for much...

All I need is a fierce apartment with a walk in closet, a terrace and no freaky neighbors. But that is apparently too much to ask for?!?!
Mr S wants a place he (or his carpenter-friend) can renovate. I want something new and fresh. Well, I can paint walls. Am actually pretty good at that but that's all the renovating I do. He is talking about new kitchen, tiles in the bathroom and knocking down walls.
I told him that I'll be somewhere far away when this takes place. And he said (the smooth talker): "Oh no, I need you to be right here with me since my life sucks without you"
So, I guess you'll see me knocking down walls sometime in the near future....:)

There was a weird smell in the kitchen this morning. I checked the fridge... nothing but then I checked the garbage and oh my god. I nearly puked! There was something leaking from the garbage and I will spare you the details but it grossed me out.

I have only 10 days to go until I'm on the riverboat in France. Can't wait. I need to sleep and be in the sun, get some really good laughs and just relax.

Tonight sis is coming over for dinner and the Football Game: Sweden vs England. I so hope Sweden wins but I do think it will be 0-0 or perhaps 1-1. If I have read the charts correctly 1-1 is just enough to get us through to the next round. I'm still quite upset with the French - they truly suck! Yesterday Spain beat Tunisia is a quite exciting game. I watched it on and off at work.

Dr C called also but I could answer as I was working. I'll call him back later and ask about the party. Hope the food was alright.

Mr S's ex kept calling for while but now he has told her to stop and apparently "go to hell", since she didn't get the message. It's odd how some people don't know when to quit. Obviously being dumped is never any fun but have some selfesteem and self respect!
I would bitch to my friends but I would NEVER call back and beg. (Here I conveniently forgot about the fact that I wanted Dr C back)

No I'm off to town to have lunch with my man and pick up some stuff that I need for France:)

Take care

Song of the day: La Camisa Negra - Juanes

The next step

is cleaning out my closet to create some room for Mr S. He is officially moving in this weekend!

The Week from Hell is almost over... only 2 working days to go and I'm glad because I'm so tired. Am working at Huvudsta on Monday night, possibly the last time before the summer holidays.

Mr S and me were out having dinner yesterday. We were supposed to met at the restaurant at Bondegatan 57. It was very warm and sunny, as it is today, so I decided to walk. About halfway I realized that I should have... I was tired and sweaty and dying for a drink. The street system in Stockholm is usually quite logical. No 1 is opposite if No 2 and so on. Bondegatan doesn't work that way.... No 57 was opposite of no 78 and I started walking from no 1. Once I got to the restaurant I ordered two dry martinis for Mr S and myself. He arrived moments after me, in a cab, looking fresh and rested. I managed first to spill most of the drink on the table and over the menu and then I dropped a fork on the floor.... not my night.
Dinner was nice, very modest prices but it felt like money well spent.
Mr S told me that his mum is dying to met with me. Christ! I wonder if she is one of those "no one is good enough for my son"-kind of moms.

His ex called during dinner. I don't really mind them talking in spite of the fact that she hasn't given up on trying to get him back. But while we are out having dinner for the first time in a week I wish he would be on the phone with anyone. It's quite rude actually. He told me that next time she calls he'll hand the phone over to me so I can answer. Then she won't call again....believe me ;)

Spoke to Dr C a few times this week since I was handling the food for his party yesterday. I was invited but I never went. I think he has gotten the picture now. It's not that I mind seeing him but it feels kind of pointless now. We don't have that much in common. It's not that I regret having spent time with him but it just over now.

Tuesday it's the Big Game for the Swedish soccerteam. We are facing Svennis and the English guys and are under the pressure to preferably win but a draw is ok too.

I found my passport and I wish I would have time to get a new one issued. I look like a hobbit in the photo so I'm not looking forward to showing it to the French custom... I wonder what it is about passports. No matter how fierce you'd usually look in a photo - the passport is always ugly.

I am so looking forward to my 12 days in France :) It will be all about wine and food and shopping...

Take care!

Song of the day: So high - John Legend

Apartment hunting

I'm looking for a new place or actually Mr S and I are looking for a new place. Living together in my apartment might be a bit optimistic.... I have after all only one room and a huge amount of shoes scattered over 46 sq. M. I was working today so he went to 5 different apartments but didn't like any of them. Personally I hate looking at apartments. It feels like coming over to someone's place where I'm not welcome. He will officially move in here on August 1st but he already spends most of the time here.

Today summer really hit Stockholm. I love it, or would have loved it if I hadn't had to work all day. In my backyard there is a barbecue that we used today so the day ended in a nice way.
Yesterday I was at my aunt's 60th birthday. My dad made me choose the wine we gave her and then he embarrassed me by making me give a speech about the wine at the party. After having eaten a lot of food, the food was great, I met up with Mr S to go to PLF & T for T's birthday party. Once we got there most people where totally wasted. It's something about their parties, once you enter the door you just get automatically drunk. I tried not to drink to much since I had to get up for work this morning but Mr S went with the flow and sunk 2 bottles of wine.
Friday we went shopping after work i. e. Mr S stood in the dressing room trying on everything I threw his way. He always wears black - how dull isn't that?!?! But I'm working on it so now he owns a beige jacket, several different colored shirts and pants :) Then we went home and watched a few episodes of "Sex and the City". He claims that he learns a lot about women by watching it. I'm just amazed that he hasn't seen it before...

Next week will be the Week from Hell! I'm working Monday and Tuesday at Huvudsta and then Wednesday - Sunday at the coffehouse. In a week moment I promised Dr C to help him arrange another party on Friday. I don't really know when I'll find the time to do the shopping for this but since I've promised I'll better deliver...

Ah, and I found my passport. It was in the kitchen. I do amaze myself sometimes....

Take care
/love E

Song of the day: Give my Life - Army of Lovers

Wrapped up

(No updates in while, sorry about that)

I truly believe that Mr S used to be an octopus in a previous life. He has a way of wrapping his arms and legs around me when he sleeps. All this makes me hot, and not in a good and pleasant way so I shove my elbow in his guts and he moves away. 5 mns later he's back there again...
It is nice however to sleep in he same bed with someone. He practically lives here now. His apartment lease in ending in July, his company rents the apartment for him, so he is looking for another place. Or actually we are looking - he wants me to move in with him.... I'm not sure. On one hand to would be great but on the other I keep thinking that we have only known eachother for about one month and what if it would end...
Well, I have some time to decide.

Dr C called me again. I screened his calls for a while but I got to curious of what he wanted so I called him back. He wants me to arrange another party for him. He pays me so why not. Mr S is cool with it. I wish he could be just a little jealous, maybe he is because he said that he was sure that Dr C wants me back "he'd be stupid not to". He have a way with words this man :)

With him living here it means that his stuff are also here. I don't mind that fact that he brought his 42" flatscreen TV but the rest of it.... computer stuff, ties, belts, shirts, pants....

The family dinner went very well. The folks seemed to like Mr S very much. And we ran into them again on Monday when sis' choir gave a concert.

Right now I am so looking forward to the riverboat holiday. It's less than 3 weeks away (note to self: find passport). Mr S asked if he could join us Paris but I think I'm gonna say no to that. This trip is about my friends and I. Mr S and I have any opportunity to go to Paris just the 2 of us later.

Big shoutout to M&M who got engaged last weekend :)

Take care
/E

Song of the day: Cuddly Toy - Roachford

Salmon and wine

I'm on my own tonight, not single - just on my own. Mr S is in Malmoe helping his ex-girlfriend to move. Apparently they planned this several weeks ago and he did offer not to go if I wouldn't think it was ok. I acted like an adult and said it was fine... I guess it is, I'm sure enough of him. Now, the girl apparently hates my guts. According to Mr S they were never really a couple, they were just sleeping together. She, on the other hand, thought of him as her boyfriend and planned to move in with him...
Well, we'll see what happens.

So, tonight I'm on my own so I picked up a nice peace of salmon, some shrimps and some wine and I'm enjoying my meal in front of the TV.

This week has been very nice. I've worked a lot and spent a lot of time with Mr S. He prefers my apartment to his (so do I ;)) so we spent most of the time here.

The advantages of dating a guy who works with internet security is that he got one of his consultants to fix my wireless internet. So now it's up and running and he did something to my computer so it's much faster than it used to be :)

Tomorrow sis is having her very delayed birthdayparty. I already gave her a gift so for tomorrow I'm going to make her a cd with some party music.
Mr S is coming with me to her party and on Sunday it's the big Meet the Parents-day. My parents can be quite odd sometime so I hope they'll at least try to act somewhat normal... They did apologize for their strange behavior last weekend.

Now I'm going to enjoy some more wine, some candy and the movie Casino.

Goodness, I miss Mr S....

Take care

Song of the day: Hips don't lie - Shakira feat Wyclef

Seriously

I am in a committed relationship and I don't know how it happened. I guess when it's right it's right.

Friday sis and I went to buy the sheets for G&V. Then we went back to our parents place for dinner. Sis looked like she was up o something all night and as we were leaving it turns out that she had a date that night. I offered to join her just to make sure that the guy was not a psycho (that's at least my official reason - I'm curious) but she said no. I called Mr S and we met up and went to Vinbaren for some wine and cheese. I like the fact that he is as into wine as I am. We had a really nice time until a couple came and sat down at the table next to us.
Sometimes I get a bad feeling about a person and the guy really gave me the creeps...

Saturday my parents were supposed to come over with the printer they gave me. I thought this could be a good time for them to met with Mr S, briefly and casually. My mum calls and I tell her that Mr S was at my place. She sounds very uncomfortable and it turns out that she sends dad in and he acts like a total idiot. I got angry and upset both for my sake and for Mr S.
Anyway, I tried not to let it get to me, even if it did.
Mr S and I spent Saturday together. We decided to go to the countryside. We went to Gripsholms castle and Mariefred, a small (very small) town right next to the castle. We had coffee and sandwiches in a place that didn't accept credit cards...
As we came home we rented Wedding Crashers (1,5/5) and The Weather Man (4/5).
And I fell asleep.

Sunday I met up with my friends for brunch and then off the G&V-reception. Hannah called and couldn't find the way to the hotel where we met. To my misfortune I answered the phone and had to take her abuse. Like it's obviously someone else's fault that she can't find her way around town... Might be nice if she could grow up and take some responsibility. I do understand that her life is about to change in a major way as she is finally done with her thesis this fall. But still... nice behavior is not to much to ask for.... or is it.

As I come to think of it... she wants to go abroad, probably the US, and do an MBA. Almost all of my friends have studied abroad, and so have I, and she is like the last one to go. I do wonder if she is nervous about going since she might not be as good a scholar as she wants to be...

And her behavior towards Mr S is still weird...

Gotto get going now, I have a meeting in town soon...

Take care
Love/E

Song of the day: Summer is Here - Eric Gadd

Happy Birthday to me :)

I'm 33 now wishing I was 27... My next "big" birthday is f***ing 40.

Have had the nicest couple of days, very much including Mr S. I worked until quite late on my actual birthday. Mr S was invited to the opening of a new posh club downtown and he asked if I wanted to join him. We went and it was... ok. The place is really cool, in a sort of designed cool way but the party was kind of dull. No dancefloor, nothing really happening just the same people you see around town hanging out and having drinks. I guess I should give it a couple of visits before I decide.
For my birthday Mr S gave me a bottle of champagne I hadn't tried before, 3 red roses and a 50 euro gift certificate at NK. God, I nearly started crying. As I'm writing this I'm staring at the fab roses.

Yesterday I gathered some of my friends for dinner and drinks at Pontus by the Sea. We had a really nice time, in spite of the fact that Hannah (true to her judgmental self) started going off on her thoughts on healthcare and money. I believe she actually looked Mr S in the eyes 3 times during the entire evening... and when she called to tell me that she was on her way her comment to his presence was "that figures". It's hard to believe that this is the same person who goes on and on about people having no class and being trashy.

At least the rest of my friends seemed to like him. I know he is nervous about my friends not liking him. He has most of his friends in the south of Sweden and he wants us to go down there for a weekend so I can met with them. That could be fun and I would also get to met lovely Sus who lives in Malmoe.

Today I'm having the compulsory birthday dinner with my parents. My dad called me the other day and told me what he is getting me: a wireless network :)
He seems to be doing well and he told me that he has lost some weight. If it's due to the cancer or just vanity I don't know.

Today sis and myself are meeting to pick up the weddingpresent for G&V. We are getting them fierce sheets.

Got the final booking confirmation for the boat for the summer :) It's just one month to go and then I'll be sipping Sancerre wine on the Loire river. Am so looking forward to that.
Mr S asked if he could join us in Paris but I'm not sure. I think this time I'm going to do Paris with my friends and he and I could go later. We have plenty of time since I do believe that this is my man.

Am now slowly staving so breakfast is a must

Take care/E

Song of the day: What you like - Darren Hayes

The Monsters strike back

I'll be damned! Lordi won the ESC!!
Was over at A-K's place for our annual ESC-evening. Plenty of laughs, wine and fun. We also did the usual betting thing. I thought that Russia would wine and Finland would come in 3rd, but how wrong was I??!! I thinks it was great and kept playing "Hard Rock Hallelujah" in my Ipod all day yesterday :)

Last week was The Week from Hell. Was working double almost everyday and was so tired on Friday I nearly started crying when I dropped a wineglass on the floor at Huvudsta. This week seems so much better already. Having my hair weaved tomorrow and I'm only working Wednesday and Thursday :) AND on Wednesday it's my birthday. I'll be 33 but I can't decide if that is a good age or not... One might think that at 33 I would have a plan, or at least some idea of what I'm gonna do with my life but one is so terribly wrong. All I really want to do is buy shoes, drink cocktails and laugh...
The weekend was great! Friday Mr S came back from Malmoe and he came over with some take out sushi and wine. We had a really nice time and....yes he told me that he is in love with me :)
Saturday I needed to pick up a dress for the G&V- pre-wedding event next weekend. Mr S has a car, a really cool 2-seater, so he gave me a ride to one of the big malls a bit outside of town and I finally found a dress. One thing less to be all stressed out about. Then we picked up thaifood and went home so I could change clothes.
Stopped by Hannah's on my way to A-K for a quick glass of wine. I got the feeling that she wanted to apologize for being a total bitch last weekend but she eventually didn't. What she did say, and that seriously bothers me is that she thinks Mr S is "slimy". Seriously, grow up girl!

Sunday we, that is Mr S and me not Hannah and me, had breakfast in bed and then we went to the movies with Henri. "The DaVinci code". I can't really decide if I liked it or not. The actual film is very...nice. The photo is great, good actors, the storyline is ok but there is something missing....I'd give it 2,5/5 because it really never gets exciting.
Then we went over to sis' place for some dinner and the hockeygame. And I'm proud to say that Sweden won again. World champions and Olympic champions in the same year - how cool isn't that?!?! So now he has met my sister and Henri too and I think it went well. Must however call sis and check what she thought of him.

Almost all the arrangements for our summer holiday are final now. The boat has been paid for, what is missing is hotels in Paris and traintickets. Am so looking forward to going to Paris again :)

Spoke to my dad on Saturday. He was out buying new stuff for his computer so I suppose he is doing quite well. He is having surgery this fall and seems to be in good spirit so am I.

Take care

Song of the day: In The Middle of It All - Irma Thomas

"I've never fallen in love...

only stepped in it a few times" That is my favorite quote from my favorite movie "Peter's Friends" (if you haven't seen it, it's a must!!)

Anyway, I supposed you could say that I am close to stepping into it right now :) Am seeing the very passionate Mr S at them moment. We met for the first time some time ago, while I was still seeing Dr C, at a network-lunch. A couple of days later we had lunch. Then all the stuff with Dr C started and ended so we didn't really met at all.

Last Monday we met for icecream before sis and me treated dad to dinner.
Monday we had dinner at RAW, probably the best sushi I've had in a long time. Afterwards we went to another place for cheese and dessert. Then back to his place ;)
We have spent every night together since Thursday and it's really great. With him I immediately know what is going on and he actually tells me how he feels.

Friday I had drinks with Hannah and Emilia and Mr S joined us a bit later. Then we strolled around town to find something to eat. We decided to try a place called The Dancing Dingo - looking back the name should have been a warning... Hannah and I had kangaroomeat - let's just say it wasn't great. We were treated to dessert that wasn't great either. All in all it was probably the worst meal I've had in a long time.... Or no I should give them credit for having really good wine and bread....

Saturday we met with Hannah for some shopping. I need a dress for a pre-wedding party I'm going to in two weeks. Didn't find a dress but picked up a pair of new cool sneakers :)
In the evening we rented a movie "The Aviator" with Leo DiCaprio, surprisingly good.

Next week could turn out to full blown chaos. I have two jobs now plus some things to do for my own company... Well, I can sleep when I'm old and wrinkled.

Better get back to my laundry!

Take care/E

Song of the day: We could be heroes - BWO

Music, music

so the Eurovision Song Contest is getting closer by the minute. I love it and I hate it. Love it because it is the one time when I can binge eat tons of candy, bounce up and down on the couch yelling at the tv "you suck"...or wait I actually did that during the icehockey championships to. Anyway, Finland is causing a huge deal this year by sending Lordi and I LOVE IT!!! They look like the UrukHai from the Lord of the Rings but the song kicks some serious booty :)

Today it's nice and sunny so I suppose I should leave the couch. Tonight I'm having dinner with sis and dad. My mother is in France celebrating a friends 70th birthday. I wish my friends would whisk me away to Nice for my birthday. Hey guys, you have 2 weeks to buy the tickets ;)

Dad, being the strong silent type, doesn't really want tot talk about his illness. It's kind of hard to bring it up when he so obviously does not want to. Well, we'll see what happens.

Last week I spent stressing about Dr C's party. It went very well apart I think. Hannah and me went over there right after the winetastsing at Uffes. Since I had spent Friday fixing most of the food all we had to do was setting things up.
We stayed long enough to hear some guy, Dr C has the strangest friends I must say, telling a story about how he was I New York and I quote "a big fat f***ing n****r" was driving his cab. That was my que to exit! Seriously, anyone using the N-word is just not ever ok. They deserve nothing but contempt and public flogging!

Hannah and me left the party and went to AG for some wine.
Now I just got a call from Mr S and we are meeting for coffee.

Thursday I was supposed to go on a date with Marty, a guy I met on the dating site (yes, I'm back there again) but he had to go to London on business. He promised he will make it up to me next week with a large amount of champagne. And I intend to hold him to his word :)

Now, I strongly suspect my girl Gonzo is in love and that is lovely :)

All in all I have to say this week has been fun and I have a good feeling about the rest of 2006. We are almost half way and like the song goes "things can only get better"

And, one more thing before I go: I have friends like Sam and I love them dearly. Thanks!

Song of the day: I will survive - Gloria Gaynor

A friend like Sam

I suppose that is what we all need...
I watched Lord of the Ring III.... again today and Sam, as always, impressed me.
Isn't that what we all need? A friend who doesn't give up on you and when you are to tired to fight they will fight for you, and when you are to tired to walk they will carry you and when you are to tired to try they will try for you.
That is the kind of friend that I need right now.
My dad is ill, he has cancer and will be having a surgery next week. On the upside is that they caught it early so the surgery don't be that invasive.
He called me this morning and broke the news to me. He also said that if he would die, God forbid, he would count on me to keep the family together... I hope I'll find the strength to do that. My dad has always been the stable and never changing part of my life. He has always said to me that everything is going to be fine and he has always believed in me. We don't always have to talk, with my dad silence is ok.
All this makes Dr C and his party seem kind of small. I'll do the party since I have promised him but that's it. Nothing more I have bigger things to focus on right now. I haven't told him about my dad since I really don't think it is any of his business nor is it his problem. What I need is someone who says that everything is going to be fine and a shoulder to cry on...

Take care
/E

Remember the bad times...

Dr C called me this morning. He not only wanted to invite me to his housewarming - he also wants me to arrange it. Fix the food, the music, buy the booze and basically the works... He woke me up so I was caught at a weak moment so I said yes. We decided to meet this afternoon to plan it.
I went over to his place, haven't been there in a while now. As we sit down with a cup of coffee he breaks the news. He is seeing someone new and she is probably coming to the party that I am arranging. What can I say?!?! What was I supposed to say?!?!
It didn't feel like it was the right time to say "I think I made a mistake, I want you back in my life" so I smiled and asked if she knew that I "the ex-girlfriend" was going to be at his housewarming. He said it was cool so I believed him.


Right now I'm spending most of my time trying to remember the bad times and the bad things about him...Like no public displays of affection, no kisses, actually no affection at all unless in bed...
Damn, I miss him but I'll be fine. I know I will because I have to.
Now I need to look ever better at the party. I need to look my best and be a cool, calm and collected party girl.
Oh well, I'll wear my new fierce shoes and a cool dress and I'll be all that :)

I just wish I had more guts so I could tell him what I waned even if it's way too late.

Sweet dreams

Song of the day: Remember the time - Michael Jackson

The Call

Had a nice time yesterday drinking champagne with some friends. We had Billecart Salmon cuvee Elisabeth Salmon 1996 (rose) and Aubry Le Nombre D'Or 1998. The rose is mabsoluteufavoritete champagne, it's perfect for the summer.

Dr C called me today and invited me to his housewarming-party next Saturday. That was nice of him of course. I suggested that we would have lunch sometime next week so it seems like we are meeting on next Friday.
If I go the party I will mosdefinitelyly bring back up -> Hannah.

On the upside: I have have a job. I'll be working at a museum twice a week all through May. They have a lot of different events that I'll be in charge of - could be fun. Am also arranging a "nice event" for 22 women between 24 and 64. I don't have any more information than that and the fact that they don't want to walk much and nothing physical... I have absolutely no idea what to arrange for them.

Right now I'm dying for some microwave popcorn :)

Take care
Song of the day: Made It Back - Beverly Knight

Mistakes we make

I think I made a mistake. I want Dr C back... or maybe it's just break up feelings that are coming back to haunt me.
As I see it I have two options:
- I don't tell him, we have no more contact and I'll regret it for a while but I'll get over it
- I humiliate myself by showing emotions and tell him and feel proud of what I did but risk total misery or complete happiness.

Hm, something to ponder upon....

Song of the day: Wish U where here - Jamie Foxx

Mission Impossible

Had a nice weekend!

Spoke to Dr C on Friday. He seems kind of determined to help me find a job, which is nice but... I really don't know what to think.

I found a job that interested me at Handelshogskola where he did his MBA. SO I asked him for some background information about the school. He called med back after having done some serious research with a bunch of names of people I should talk to.
On Friday he called me back again after having spoken to some more people...
It's not that I don't appreciate his help - I really do but I feel a bit odd about all the effort he is putting into this. Hannah thinks I should keep "a door open" for him because she is convinced that he is doing all this to impress me enough to take him back. I do want him in my life but may be not as a boyfriend more like a friend.
After all he is a genuinely kind person and I don't think he would do anything to hurt me.
We are, however, totally different and have very different interests.

Gave in to my lower instincts on Friday and met my bootycall J ;) We had fun but some of the magic is gone now... Spent Friday night at home, mad a nice meal for myself and had some wine. Saturday fierce gal-pal Gonzo and me had brunch at Clarion hotel. A very nice brunch and we got to do some catching up. Afterwards we took a stroll around town in the sun and I found a great pair of shoes that I bought. Spring is really in the air now and it's so nice.

Saturday night was Maria's party. I got home in time to take a quick shower and change clothes. I wore my new shoes, they are slightly too big but I'll try to find some soles to put in them. The party was fun. They started out with a music quiz - an idea I intend to steal for our vacation - and then we had dinner. The food was ok, not more and not less. I was seated next to a guy I haven't met before but he was ok. I stayed until the end, as usual and then we went onto a pub but I didn't stay that long. Got home at around 2.30 and went to bed.

Today I went over to sis' place for dinner and some wine. We had a great time.
Tomorrow I'm having lunch with Ingrid EM. She is giving me an coffemaker :)

God, I'm so tired today!

Take care

Song of the day: Sweet Love - Anita Baker

After Easter

Survived Easter with a little help from my friends :)
Thursday was great, had the girls over for dinner and a lot of laughs and wine. Friday wasn't my best day...spent it doing laundry and puking ;) Finally managed to drag my sorry self to the pizzaplace and the videostore (Ali and Ocean's 12).

Saturday was better. Went over to dad to get some help doing my taxreturns. Since I sold my old apartment last year it's oh so complicated this year... Need to dig up some old papers from the sale to get the numbers right. If I don't I risk having to pay taxes for the profit I made on my apartment and I really don't want to do that. Spent Saturday night with Hannah drinking champagne at Gondolen with a spectacular view over town. Stockholm is really beautiful, sometimes I forget that.
Would have been home at a decent hour, we left at 1 but no. Some idiots decided the subway was a great place to settle some differences so eventually the police was called in. Maybe it's a sign that I'm getting older but I keep wondering what these kids are doing out?

Sunday was the Big Family GetTogether. My cousins and their kids came over to my parents place since they have the biggest house. On the upside I only got the usual "aren't you going to have kids soon"-question once this time. My answer :" Oh no, I just broke up with my boyfriend" shut them up a bit. All in all there were 4 kids between 1,5 and 7 years of age there and all I could think of was when can I leave and go and have a drink...

Sunday night sis, her boyfriend and me went to the movies (Walk the Line 4,5/5). I think the boyfriend is kind of boring. So not the guy I'd see my sister with but what do I know...
He was nice enough to invite me to his birthday party in 2 weeks. This means I need to get him a present...

Today I made the final reservations for our summer holiday. We will spend one week on a river boat on the Canal Lateral de la Loire and then a few days in Paris :)
To drive the riverboat one does not need any experience, I mean how hard can it be. (Might be famous last words from my big mouth ;))

Once in Paris I'm going to Hediard and Fauchon and also Lavinia. The rest of the time I'll just stroll the streets and soak in the ambiance. I miss Paris!

Spring has arrived in Stockholm and with spring comes new spring shoes... I'm going into town tomorrow to find some.

Have spoken to Dr C twice since the big break up. He called again yesterday while I was training and just left a message. He was in my neighborhood and needed to find a restaurant.
I need to call him for some tips on a job that I'm applying for.
I don't really know which approach is the best: Break up and no contact what soever or break up and keeping in touch on a friendly bases?
Well, let's see what happens...

Take care!

Song of the day: Naughty Girl - Holly Valens

Red red wine

This has not been my best day. Had the girls over for dinner yesterday and the four of us managed to down 6 bottles of wine. But we had a nice dinner with plenty of laughs and some dancing too :)
Today I have been on the couch all day wondering why it seemed like a good idea to have a dry martini at 2.30 in the morning...
Now I'm dying for a pizza, a good movie and plenty of water...

The lunch with Dr C went surprisingly well. He was extremely charming and cute like he can be and we had a good time. He has started to get some furniture in his apartment, sounds like it will be very nice once he is done. I promised to check out some place where he can get some second hand furniture.

Sunday I'm meeting the rest of my family. My mum is hosting a big familylunch at their place. My cousins, the boring crowd, will be there. Can't say I'm looking forward to it but afterwards me and sis and some friends are going to go dancing at a gayclub. It is usually so much fun there so that part of Sunday I'm looking forward to.

Happy Easter everyone

Song of the day: Dani California - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Closure

Just talked to Dr C on the phone. We are meeting for lunch tomorrow and it's safe to say that I'm NOT looking forward to it... I thought that I would need some sort of closure and to say good bye properly therefore I insisted that I needed my stuff back from his place. I just left a make up remover and a facecream that I don't really need. But now we are meeting for lunch.

I feel mostly relieved now. No more questions and constant wondering...

Actually talking to him was nice so I had, for a split second, some second thought but then I tried to tell him what I'm up to and he is totally uninterested, just like he was before so no second thoughts :)

I found a fab job that I applied for today at a brand new hotel that is opening soon. Apparently is will be a so called boutique hotel. Sounds very nice. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Am actually back at the dating site again, mostly for fun this time around and a 23-year old asked me out. I mean he is almost 10 years younger than me...a bit too young actually.

Uber cool blogger buddy Steph wrote the funniest thing about her boss actually going down on a stripper at a hen-night. Seriously, that is just so nasty!!

Thursday I having some friends over forEasterr dinner. Will be so nice!
I reallyreallyy have the best friends anyone could wish for and even if I don't always say it I appreciate them every day.

And HUGE thanks to all my blogger buddies for support and kind words!!

Take care!

Song of the day: Clean Depeche Mode

Moved on

I moved on from Dr C very quickly... maybe to quickly. I feel fine actually but I keep thinking that all this will catch up with me and I'll breakdown. But somehow I don't think so. Now there is no more drama, no constant wondering about what is going on...
Like girlfriend T said "Now there is nothing to worry about" And I realized that I have been worried for the last 3 months. Not a really great way to live.

Had a great time this week end. Thursday I had dinner with some friends. We had some really nice conversations about most thing like life and love and work...
Friday I met up with the rest of the EC-crowd at a place called Cliff Barnes (remember the guy from Dallas??). I have never been there before but it was quite cool. At around 11 o'clock they turned on the music and there was some serious dancing... People basically danced everywhere and it was so hot!! Once they closed we went onto Storstad for some more drink. Quick pit stop at McDonalds and then home to bed.

Saturday an all-girl dinner at PLF's place. She is really a great cook and it was nice to meet all the girls again.
Sunday was wonderfully sunny so Hannah and me strolled round town and then had some wine at a nice bar. When I came home... a bit tipsy I rented King Kong (3/5) and had dinner.

Today I met with a really nice guy from SC. We had lunch at a place that would be perfect for Hannahs graduationparty in September. I have some really fierce ideas for the party but I need to check out how traditional is has to be.

Better get back to writing my jobapplications

Take care!
Song of the day: Blind leading the blind - Mick Jagger & Dave Stewart

Goodbye Dr C

Dr C just left my place and we broke up.
It was very dignified, no arguments and no tears - no drama. Kind of like our relationships has been.
I feel... mostly empty. He is after all someone I've spent quite a lot of time with and I will probably never see him again (Well, I'll see him once more since I have some stuff I need to pick up at his place).
We weren't eachothers perfect match but I don't feel like I've made a mistake dating him and I will miss him for a while. This guy I will remember fondly, really I will. He is a nice guy but but MY nice guy.

I probably will be sad and cry once all the information has sunk in but right now I'm ok. There will obviously be ups and downs but life goes on and I'll go with it. And I obviously will be wearing fabulous shoes as I go ;)

"Though lovers be lost, love shall not be"

Take care!

Song of the day: Separated - Usher

Hello Winter!

It's snowing or rather it's a dreadful mix of running and frozen water coming from the sky.
Why??? Where can I complain? I want my money back!!!

So, it's Friday today - nice. I'm going to rent a DVD tonight and have a drink.
Now, I've been trying to get the morning paper for some time now. A salesperson called and offered me a very good deal so I said yes. This was 2 weeks ago and still no paper. They called yesterday claiming they have got the wrong address but somehow they got my phonenumber right. Now it is suppose to come tomorrow... we'll see about that.

There is one person who annoys me more than anyone on this planet: Linda Skugge (unfortunately she writes in Swedish). Anyway she is on a personal crusade trying to convince women in their 30ies to have children. The irony is that she used to be a very trendy "city-girl" and now she has kids and a house in the suburbs and is just plain sad!
She has always been very judgmental about peoples lifestyles - it's very much her way or the highway but seriously....
If she wants to have kids and live in the suburbs - fine. I'm happy for her but why can't she respect other peoples choices? And now - even worse - she is against free abortions! I am totally pro-choice! I have a very hard time believing that women would use abortion as birthcontrol.
She seriously promotes that OB's should convince women to have kids since "there are so many women who wants to have kids and can't". Ok, that is NOT an argument. I truly feel very sorry for those who wants to have kids and can't but will they be happier if I have kids?? No, didn't think so.
I have never had an abortion (knock on wood) but I really don't think it would be a decision I would take lightly.
In theory, if I became pregnant, I could keep the baby. I mean I am a quite capable adult but I don't want to. I have never had that desire to have children. Maybe my maternal genes are just not functioning. I mostly find kids loud and annoying...

Spoke to Dr C yesterday. I think he has found my blog since he told me about what's going on in his life just like I wanted :) But then... he said to me: "Maybe you'll feel better and have more fun if you'd get a job" Gee, thanks for that advice, that idea never actually crossed my mind. What the hell does he think I've been doing for the last 3 months?!?!
Today I got an answer to the mail I sent to place where I'd like to work and they want me to send over my cv :) Keep your fingers crossed for me!!

Big shoutout to fierce and fab Gonzo who had her birthday!

Saturday I'm having dinner with sis, Hannah and Tanja. And then we'll hit the town for some drinks. Might see you out there!
Take care!

Song of the day: The Max - Prince

Hello Boredom!

It's official: I have no life! The prime of my day today seems to be the laundry and a call from mum...
OMG, a job is a must right now. Did however work at Huvudsta yesterday which was fun as usual. Camilla, friend from Huvudsta, is leaving and starting up her own business: she is becoming a bag designer! How cool isn't that?!? I will so buy her stuff when they come out.

Spoke to Dr C on Monday night, or more like Tuesday morning. I called to see if we could have lunch today but he is busy. I so tried to tell him a the stuff I'm thinking about over the phone but it was 1 o'clock at night so my mind wasn't that clear.
So far I've come up with (or my fierce buddy Nick has come up with) the fact that I think way too much. I should just go with my gut feeling. But it was my gut that got me into this trouble to start with...
So what does my gut tell me??!?!
I do like him a lot most of the time.
I wish we could "connect" easier but I know that I'm partly to blame for that as I do not like to talk about myself

Ok, enough of the rambling: next time I see him I'm going to tell him that I'd like to keep seeing him, more often and we need to define what we are. If only for my own peace of mind.

Now there I have it, that is what I need: peace of mind. Just wonder where I'm going to find it....

So hungry now!

Take care!

Song of the day: Sooner or Later - Madonna

Hello Consumer!

Last impulse purchase: A new face cream by Laura Mercier
Best walk: Along Karlbergsstrand
Favorite drink: Champagne
Eat luxury dinner at: F12
Favorite street: Avenue de Champagne in Epernay
Best pre-partymusic: MJB and BWO
Best give awaypresent: A nice bottle of wine
Favorite luxury stuff: Expensive shoes and bags
Favorite sounds: Don't know
Latest discovery in Stockholm: Some really nice new restaurants down town
Favorite gallery: Don't really go to galleries but I like the Museum of Modern Art
Favorite site: Shortcut
Favorite magazine: Livets Goda
Place to take mum to dinner: Cook something nice at home
Favorite suburb: Huvudsta - the place to be ;)
Besplacece for coffee: Mojo (to stay) or Sosta (to go)
Favorite store: Tara Jarmon, ZARA and COW
Best lunch: At home
Favorite brand: Xuly Bet
Favorit animal: Cat
The worlds best living director: Ang Lee...maybe
Famous person I'd like to meet: David Gahan!!!
Favorite shoes: Can't decide but this summer I'll wear higher heels
Money spent on clothes each month: Depends..
Fahion roll model: MJB and Gwen Stefani
Most overrated store: Gucci
Most expensive thing I've bought: My apartment
Fashion I don't ever want to see again: Capri pants for men, seriously
Favorite product at Systembolaget: Most kinds of champagne
Best Hang over food: pizza
Favorite bar: NOX
Latest find: a very cool necklace at HM
Best novel: The Class by Erich Segal
Best poetry collection: Anything by Robert Blake
Favorite product from the pharmacy: resorb - the best thing against a hangover
Order at the bar: Champagne or Cosmopolitans

So, indulge me with your lists :)

On Strike

It's not only the French that are on strike. I am a one person procession of demonstrators...or it's maybe more like a boycott. I read that Tommy Hilfiger does not like it when black rappers wears his clothes - therefore I'm now boycotting anything by Tommy. I really don't think it will have any impact on the world business but still...
Now, regarding the French - they truly have my sympathies. The proposition is totally outrageous. By being able to lose your job with out warning for the first 2 years your have absolutely no security at all. The jobs I have had I stayed about 2 years.
It's crazy and I hope M. de Villepin will see his mistake and change his mind.

I admire people who goes out of their way to make changes in the world. I give money to the MSF and sometime to some other charities but that's it. I want to try to find something that I can be really passionate about (and this not being getting a new Furla bag). Maybe I should try out some volunteerwork....I'll look into it.

Talked to Dr C today. He is in Italy with his job, conference and skiing. I wish I was skiing in Italy...
He didn't tell me that he was going which only once again proves that I am not a factor in his life...
He has shut down his account on the datingwebsite - if that is good or bad I don't really know yet. I am going to ask him when he comes back to town.
On the one hand I suppose it's good that he is not dating someone else but on the other hand it could be that he has actually met someone else he wants to be with. (Wonder why buddy Carl says that I tend overanalyze things ;))

Blogger and IRL buddy Joachim left for his diving adventure in Egypt today. He'll be back in a months time and hopefully spring will have arrived then. Yesterday it was actually snowing!!

Next week I'm contacting a girl who is training to be a cook. She wants to work within the eventbusiness just like me. It would be great if we could find something to do together.

Now I will get back to watching figureskating :)

Take care

Song of the day: What Is A Man - Alexander O'Neil

Winter is back

and with a vengeance! Today it's actually snowing... again! The weekend was really nice. I got to wear my new sunglasses that I love and there was a feeling of spring in the air.

Last week was nice. I spent a lot of time alone around the house. Dr C was working a lot so we only spoke on the phone a few times. Friday was sis' birthday and we all met for dinner at an Italian place. The food was ok but the portion were quite small.
Got to met sis' new boyfriend. He seems a bit stuck up actually and he tried to make some jokes that no one really found funny. But all in all dinner was nice and it was nice to see Dr C again - I missed him (the romantic is back...;)).

Saturday was the Swedish try outs for the Eurovision song Contest. Now this is still a huge deal in Sweden. This last week it has been all over the papers "Did the right song win??" Well, if you ask me the answer is no.
Carola won, and all my respect to her as an artist but she has some opinions about the church, god and the gay community that scares me. To say for instance that being homosexual is a sin and you can be cured by prayer.... I DON'T THINK SO!!!
I can't really believe why some find homosexuality so offensive. As long as we are talking about consenting adults I don't care whether there is 1 person or 10 in bed (or wherever you choose to have your fun).
Hannah and myself joined sis and some of her friends and watched the competition. A-K, where we were, is so into this. She has taped all the competitions since 1981...
After the TV-show was over Hannah and I stayed and had a great conversation with A-K and her man. They are really nice both of them.

Sunday Hannah and me went into town to check out some clothes for the upcoming wedding. Now I know the actual wedding is not until August but it's always nice to be prepared :) I really don't know which dresscode they will go for. Knowing Gosta, he is kind of traditional so I think it will be quite a dress up occasion.
After strolling around a bit we went over to Nordic Light hotel for martinis and some wine and then off to Nordic Sea hotel for dinner. It's important to end the weekend in a good way I believe.
We got to talking about dating ex-boyfriends of friends. God, for me that is a huge no-no... Well at least depending on how much time has passed since the breakup. Less than 1 year is not happening for me.
Called Dr C to see if he wanted to join us but there was no answer. He had a huge presentation to work on. He called back a bit later but then my cellphone battery died so I couldn't call him back. Too bad!
Called him again yesterday by still no answer. I'm not that big on leaving messages for people so I guess he'll call me back eventually. I hope I'll get to see him this weekend, we both have been quite busy in the evenings lately.

Have been thinking a lot about relationships lately. Per and I talked last weekend about how to make your partner feel appreciated and secure. I know I'm not good at that but I'm going to try a bit harder. I will try to talk more about me and my feelings and ask more about him and how he feels about things.
We did have a nice talk about his job after sis' dinner. I tried to cheer him up and make him see the good sides.

Now enough of the drama I'm really hungry.

Take care!
Song of the day: Satisfied - Prince

It's all about sex...

1- How old were you when you lost your virginity? Who was it to? Describe the event.
Believe it or not, I was 18 and it happened in a hotel in Gothenburg. I would say it wasn't a very memorable event at all. Fortuneately sex has improved since...

2- What is the strangest place you've had sex?
A movietheater. Have had that fantasy for ages and met a guy who wanted to make it happen for me. What a gentleman ;)

3- Who would you consider "switching teams" for?
Halle Berry

4-Do you prefer to give or receive?
Give. Have been told I'm good at it.

5- One night stands- What's the protocol? Stay the night or get the hell outta there?
If it's at my place it's ok to stay the night. Since my mama raised me right I always offer breakfast in the morning. Leaving in the middle of the night without saying goodbye is a big no-no...

6-Favourite body part/parts of the opposite sex?
Hands, arms, legs and eyes

7-quickie or long and slow?
Depends on my mood...

8-Noisy or quiet?
A bit noisy, at least enough to know that I'm doing it right

9- Ideal amount of sex per week?
Twice a day

10-What's your number one sexual turn off?
Body odor and just no sex appeal

11-Number one arousal trigger?
A slow dance with a guy who can move

12-What constitutes bad sex?
No foreplay and a guy who moves too fast

13- Celebrity you would love to shag right now?
David Gahan and/or Lenny Kravitz

14- Define sexy?
Self confidence, brains and charisma. And the body awareness dancing gives.

15- Remember the best sex you ever had. What made it special?
The first time with my longlasting love Sebastian or the second time with Dr C. Can't really decide..
With Sebastian it was special because he did everything right and he was, at least lookwise, very much my type, and with Dr C because I was falling for him...

And now...IT'S ON!!

DAVID!!!

I want David Gahan, seriously. He is incredibly sexy and gorgeous and great. I could just keep him in my house and listen to him sing :)

More than anything am I bored now... Today I cleaned my apartment... again.
Yesterday I went training since I missed Mondays training due to a quick dinner with Dr C. Monday I was at a seminar about how to handle your finances when you start your own company. They talked about taxes and accounting. God, it is really complicated! I hope I can manage it. Got quite upset about it all actually, felt like an total idiot since I suck at math...
And then Dr C cracks this incredibly stupid comment about my hair.

Tomorrow it's sis birthday. She'll be 33! And we are all going out for Italian and we are meeting her new boyfriend. He actually called me yesterday and asked what he should get for her. That's sweet I think :) I'm getting her some bling-bling, am going into town tomorrow to get it.
Dr C was invited too so I think he is going to come. When I asked him he answered: that could be nice... A little enthusiasm would hurt!!!
I think we are getting to the point when we have to decide if we are going to keep dating or not. At least I am getting to that point.
He is incredibly sweet and fun but maybe we don't have that much incommon. The weird thing is that we have been seeing eachother for some 6 months but I can't say that I know him... Maybe we should talk more about ourselves. If he comes to the dinner thing tomorrow and we spend the night together I'll try to ask him more about himself. The problem is that if I ask him about personal stuff he will probably start asking me and I truly hate talking abut myself...

Did one very productive thing today: I sent my cv to some places where I'd like to work. Not that they are looking to employ but I could get lucky.

Am so hungry now..

Take care!

Song of the day: Strangelove - Depeche Mode

A better place

Have had quite a busy week actually.
Spent most of Monday and Tuesday looking for jobs. Wrote a really good letter that I'm going to send to some places where I'd like to work. Not that they are really looking but I might find some openings anyway.
Have trained at all last week due to my eye. It's better today so I will probably go training tomorrow again.

Thursday I went with sis and Tanja to the spring fashion event at NK. It was ok, not really all that great. One good thing is their new shoe and bag department. It really really nice. Checked out a Furla bag that I'd love to buy.
It costs about 300 euros but once I get a new job and a paycheck I will indulge myself. Because I'm worth it.

Friday I was home watching "Batman Begins" 3,5/5. It was pretty good since fab Christian Bale is starring in it. Talked to buddy Joachim for a while too. He was home cramming for his big Dive Master degree that he is doing in Egypt in a couple of weeks. He is nice, always manages to cheer me up when I'm not feeling all that happy. It does however feel a bit weird to talk to him about my relationship issues...

Saturday Hannah and myself went to the Winebar to celebrate Ingrid's birthday. We had a very nice time and once they closed we stopped by 7-11 to pick up some candy and drinks mixers and went back to Hannah's place for some more drinks. Dr C called and he was at a friends place having dinner.

Today Hannah and me (The Dreamteam ;)) went to a museum to see an exhibition about fashion and shoes. Two truly essential things in my life. It was interesting but I had hoped that it would have been bigger. Tried to get Dr C to come with us but he was at home sleeping and then he was off playing bandy with some friends.

Saturday night, on our way home, Per and I shared a cab. He is truly intelligent and fun. We got to talking a bit about relationships. He told me some very good thing about men and their views about relationships. As I think about what he said I do believe that he is right so I'll try to put my new found knowledge into practice :)

Right now I'm waiting by the phone... pathetic but true.

Friday sis is turning 33 and we are all going out for dinner at an Italian place. I need to get her a cool present but I have no idea what to get her. She asked me to ask Dr C to join us so next time he calls me I'll ask him.

Am looking at quite a busy week which is good :)

Take care

Song of the day: John the Revelator - Depeche Mode

Feeling better...

today actually. Haven't really done much this weekend, just moved my sad booty from the bed to the couch and back to the bed.

Two couples I know are getting married this fall. First out are the Brussels-couple G+V. They are getting married in Vilnius in August. Could be fun. They have been seeing eachother for 2,5 years and have been living together in Bruxelles for 1 year. G comes from a very big and very traditional family so I think the wedding will be very traditional. They met and he proposed to her one year later.

Second are D+C. They are exchanging their vows in Paris in September - very romantic... It's just that they have been dating for 3 months. I still considering it dating when it's only been 3 months...
Why do people do this?!?! Seriously, they way they are going off at eachother I doubt that they will last until September (suppose the romantic in me is dead and gone ;)).
Regardless it's a good reason for me to go to Paris...

Am considering taking a long weekend with sis and Henrik in Rome in April. Just hanging out, eating great food drinking wine and doing some serious shopping. Italy is always nice!

It seems like I'll be getting my way with the summer holidays. We will be renting a riverboat in France :) I'd love to go to the Loire-area and see all the chateaux. Most of them are open to the public and some are hotels so we could spend one night.

Watched the Eurovision Song Contest yesterday. I suppose it was ok. It's more fun to watch it with the rest of the gang. Last year we watched the finals at Anna-Carin's place and had a bet going on. We also gave our own points for stuff like best/worst clothes, best/worst choreography etc.

Now I'm dragging my sorry self in the shower and then out for a walk in the snow.

Have a great Sunday!

Take care,
Song of the Day: What a Diff'rence A day Makes - Dinah Washington

Note ot self: don't miss very fine Hugh Jackman as Wolverine tonight on TV

Not all that...

today. Well, apart from my hair that turned out really great. Now, when Roseline does my hair it takes basically 12 hrs, when Elizabeth does it, it takes 4,5 hrs.... Guess where I'll be going next time??!?!
Haven't been feeling very well this week and today I'm really really ill! I think I have an eye infection - my left eye is all swollen and I can't see clearly...Suppose I should go to the doctor.

Spent the day at Elizabeth's salon. Me, being the very time focused European I am, was totally stressed out by the fact that every one who works there moves oh so slow! Elizabeth, from Kenya, laughed at me and said that I was "very Swedish"... I guess so but how can I not be since I've lived in Sweden almost all of my life?!?! She asked me if I spoke Swahili, which I don't. It sounds like a very cool language though so maybe I'll learn it. In Liberia, my country of birth, they speak English I believe.

Tomorrow Hannah is having her "glamorous Dinner" but I think I have to miss it. Am not feeling very glamorous and with my weird eye I can't wear any make up. I'll see how I'll feel tomorrow but I think I'll be staying in this week end.

Saturday night is also the Eurovision Song Contest, which is a huge deal here. One of the contestant, Bodies Without Organs (that I like btw) have a gay front man. Because of that there has been a huge protest organized by the Neo-Nazis and such crap... God, what is wrong with the world we live in today?!?! I mean people still starve to death and all some can think about is who the next guy is sleeping with...

I'm spending my Friday night in front of the TV, drinking an herbal potion I bought that supposedly helps against a cold :)

Take care

Song of the Day: To Have And To Hold - Depeche Mode

Champagne, champagne pt III

Had a lovely time last night with Torbjorn and Anna. We spent the last money from last years champagnetasting on a bottle of Bollinger RD 95. We also had a Palmer 98 and a lovely Verdicchio that Torbjorn brought.
Anna brought duck's liver (foie gras). I know it is immoral to eat it due to how it is produced but I really really like it.
There where some demonstrations against restaurants serving it last week.

Had a good week. Was supposed to have my hair done on Monday. Talked to Roseline last week and we decided that she was coming over on Monday morning. When I hadn't heard from her late Sunday night (had already taken my old braids out...) I got quite worried.
She didn't call nor answered the phone. I left a few messages and then I started looking for another place. Was lucky enough to get an appointment the same day. So for now I have my own hair for a while. I'm going back to have it rebraided tomorrow.

Went into town to check out the annual booksale. Picked up a few crime stories and a Lonely Planet guide to Loire, since it seems like that's where we'll spend out summer holiday.

Now the "Bird flu" has officially reached Sweden. I'm not really that worried yet since I don't hang around birds that much.

Today I think I'm about to catch a cold... Dr C was here last weekend and sneezed so I guess I got it from him....
He gave me a cool t-shirt that he bought in New York. That was nice of him I think.

Today I'm staying in I think :)

Take care

Song of the day: The Bottom Line - Depeche Mode

GOLD!!!

Yesss, Sweden beat Finland in the men's hockeygame 3 - 2!!!
Great and exciting game.
Have had a quiet week. Spent most of it at home fixing stuff in my apartment. I'm actually thinking about selling it. I have found a new area that is being built close to where I live today. But the apartments won't be ready until the end of 2007. I can't really plan that far ahead... I mean I don't even know what I shall wear tomorrow...
Had a massage session on Friday morning and d*mn it was painful but painful in a good way. My back is so much better know. So I can actually sit now :)

On Wednesday I'm having some friends over for a champagne tasting/dinner. Will be nice, even if I sometimes get very annoyed about certain things about one of them.
When I drink champagne I love to try new kinds. And it doesn't always have to be one f the "major" brands. And everything doesn't have to be by the book. I'd rather drink cheap champagne in a plastic cup with the right company then an expensive one with people I don't like... Well that's just me...

Had a nice week end. Friday Dr C came over for dinner. We had a nice time. We actually got to talking about us, not really The Talk but now I feel like we are getting a bit closer each time we met.
Saturday I met my family for dinner and Cabaret, the musical. It was so great!! It was set in a restaurant so at first we had dinner and then the actual show started.
afterwards I met with Hannah and some of her friends. One of the guys was that typical type of guy that I really hate. He was very "Mr Know-It-All" and apparently loved the sound of his own voice... And the worst was when he went of and bought a cocktail and came back and said "Isn't that the most gay drink you've ever seen?" I really hate that, it is so not funny! And he obviously laughed at his own jokes, most of the time he was the only one who laughed.

Last week I ordered new glasses, really cool ones. They should be done in about 2 weeks.
This week I'm also having my hair done. I made an estimate on how much money I've spent on my hair the last 10 years and I stopped when I got to 5000 euros. Well what can I say?!?! I might go into bankruptcy but I'll look great doing it ;)

Next week end sis, Hannah and me are having a Glamour dinner at her place. I have to find some recepies for the dinner. That'll be fun :)

Now I'll better get started one something....I just don't know what :) I'll watch Qeer Eye for the Straight Guy while I figure it out :)

Take care and a big shout out to sweetheart Mats who is turning 36 today.

Song of the day: Stupid Girls - Pink

A nice week

Had a blast at Maria's party! Got to catch up with old friends and made some new ones.

What's funny about the people I met is that some of them are part of the same internet network that I am. (No it's not about dating ;)) Shortcut. So I have "spoken" to them and known them for quite sometime but never met them face to face. Got to met some of them at the party and it was really great. They are even better in real life!
Ran into my ex and his new girlfriend and they are thinking about moving to Australia. They spent Christmas there and apparently fell totally in love with the country.

Was feeling quite low on Friday night so to cheer my self up I picked up a new jacket (retail therapy) and wore it to the party. Good friend Joachim called late Friday night and cheered me up.
Got home at around 4.30 in the morning...

Sunday, Hannah and myself went to a jewelry exhibition and had a late lunch.
Mondaynight at around 11 pm I felt like it was a good idea to start fixing my bathroom. I needed to put up my mirror again. Obviously I dropped it into the sink. I managed to save the mirror from breaking but not the shelf... so I had make up stuff all over the bathroom and I of course, hadn't closed my face powder box so I had face powder all over the bathroom too. My neighbors probably think I'm nuts :)

A huge shoutout to the Swedish hockey-girls. They did beat the US and gave Canada a good fight. Go girls! Sweden is actually doing quite well in the winter Olympics this year :)

Dr C is back from New York. He called yesterday and emailed me a link to an online photoalbum. Had some really nice pics! I am dying to go to New York, maybe I'll try to get there sometime in August or September. Suppose I should try to get a job first...

Seems like the Swedish hockey-men are going to beat Switzerland (5-1) he he he :)

Take care

Song of the day: Suffer Well - Depeche Mode

Valentines Day sadness

One of my favorite artists and most talented young R'n'B stars is gone:
Lynden David Hall
He died from cancer on Valentine's Day.
He made some amazing songs and in his memory I'll listen to them tonight and light a candle for him. Rest In Peace

On a more selfish note:
Had lunch with Dr C today since he is going to New York tomorrow and won't be back until Tuesday. We talked on the phone 3 times yesterday :) He was very happy about the CD actually.
Lunch was very nice and relaxed and I'm suddenly not so worried about what s going on with us. It feels very nice, cozy and relaxed. We have fun together and he likes me ... a lot - that I can tell. When he comes back from NY I'm going to bring up the dating site issue once and for all. I have the weekend to work up my nerve.

On Saturday Maria is having her birthdayparty and I got her some very nice flavored chocolates. Hm, I wonder what I shall wear to that party. Last years party was great. Back then I had a huge crush on Mats, wonder if he will be there this year.

And I have got some amazing comments and thought from my internetbuddies. Am so grateful for that :)

Take care of yourselves and the ones close to you

Song of the day: The Other Side - Lynden David Hall

On mute

He did call. Twice. My cellphone was in my bag. On mute. With low battery....
And left a message: "Happy Valentines Day, thanks for the CD. I'm home"

When I saw that he called it was so late so I sent him a textmessage.
So my misery yesterday was just temporary it seems. I'll call him later today and check if we can met tonight or tomorrow night :)

Today I'm going to call Roseline to have my hair done, the bank to start a new account and the job I applied for to see what up.

Take care

Song of the day: Step By Step - Whitney Houston

Misery loves company

or maybe not...

The week end was very nice. Friday drinks with Hannah and some friends at Marie Laveau and Saturday first concert with sis' choir then dinner at Hannah's and then Chris' birthdayparty. Met some people I haven't seen in a while, which was fun. Tried to get Dr C and his brother to join us but he was to tired.

On Thursday night Dr C and I spoke on the phone - nice as usual. Afterwards I worked up the nerve to tell him my thought on the dating site etc so I called him back and to my surprise there was no answer. I got a textmessage at about 1.30 pm saying that he had fallen asleep and he wanted me to call if I was awake. By then I had lost my nerve so I never called him back. All day Friday I was terrified - if I would talk to him I would obviously have to explain why I called back so shortly after we hung up the phone so I did the mature thing: total denial and call screening... He called twice on Friday but I didn't answer.
On Saturday we spoke on the phone and decided to meet up later.

After Chris' party on Saturday I went over to Dr C's place and spent 2 nights. Went home on Monday morning after breakfast. We had some very nice talks about a lot of stuff. He has a way of saying "we..." like "we didn't get the paper this morning" or "I want to be an at-home man but we have to have kids first"
(I suppose I should tell him that kids are not part of my future plans)

Monday was spent in Valentines Day contemplations: what should I do for Dr C. Eventually I decided to make him a CD with some of my favorite songs which I think was kind of nice. I mailed it to him so he should have gotten it today... And that's it! No calls, no messages no nothing! For once I have actually met someone I would like to spent a special Valentines day with - then there is not a d*mn thing!
And on Friday he is going to New York for the week end.

I so wonder what went wrong....

Today I went to a fashion show. The husband of a friend of mine was showing his work. It was very very nice and I am definetly going to buy some stuff of his.

Take care

Song of the day: So High - Toni Braxton

A new point of view

Went to check out new glasses today. Found an amazing pair from Miu Miu that I think I'm going to buy. I borrowed 3 pairs of glasses to try on at home so by Saturday I must decide.

Glasses are really expensive stuff so the pair I choose must be the perfect pairs. Had some trouble with my eye today but the medicine I got is helping - good thing.

Started planning another champagnedinner with AnnaT today. I would love to try the Louise (Pommery) but she wanted to go for Bollinger instead. We'll see what we end up drinking. Sometimes I think she is a bit to much into brands and not so willing to try new stuff. Just because it's expensive doesn't mean it has to be great... There is this wine I really really like: it's Portuguese and only costs about 5 euros...but it's great!

Am back to my more skeptical and not so romantic self today. Checked the dating site yesterday and oh yes just like I thought Dr C is still logging on there. Actually he was online when I checked. So I suppose he is looking for someone else then. Too bad!
I have decided that a mixed CD is to personal, so I'll try to come up with some other idea. I mean seriously, why should I commit to him when he is still on the look out for some girlfriend material!?!
Well, like my friend Per always says: "Judge a person by their actions not by their words"
I guess it's time for The List again. Every time I have to make a difficult decision I write a list of pro's and con's. At the moment the positive things about Dr C are predominant but there is the Dating site issue which grows into a bigger problem the more I think about it. I wonder how he would react if I just ask him straight out. I should do that since communication is the key but I'm not sure I am ready for the answer yet....

Well, we'll see what happens :)

Take care!

Song of the day: Refuge (When it's cold outside) - John Legend

An eye for an eye...

Went to the eyedoctor today to have my weird eye checked out. He looked for ages and then he grunted, walked ut of the room and stayed out for about 5 mins... I got quite worried actually. He came back and told me that he does not know what is wrong! He gave me eyedrops that I'm supposed to take at night. That's it! I mean this man has spent at least 5 years in med school and all he can say is "I don't know"...and I had to pay for it.

But on the good side: before the eyedoctor appointment I had lunch with Dr C :) I called him early, well what is early for me 9 o'clock, and asked him if he was available for lunch. He actually sounded happy that I called... I like that!

I have made up my mind about Valentines Day. I'm going to make him a cd with some of my favorite songs. I think that is pretty neat! I hope he will enjoy it. Now, the question is should I ask him out on Valentines Day or should I wait for him to ask me??? I'd rather have dinner at home then go out I think. But I'll wait until Sunday. If he hasn't said anything by then I'll bring it up.

Right now there is a show called "Sex Inspectors" on TV were they help couples whose sexlife is practically gone. Interesting and quite funny actually. They are giving tips on how to seduce your partner and spice up your sexlife. Some tips are really good... ;)

Did you know that the average person spends 336 hours kissing in a lifetime...Sounds great :)

Sweet dreams!

Song of the Day: Don't let go (Love) - En Vogue

PS I gave up the crossword and started another one, that isn't going so well either!

A Romantic in denial

Ok, I admit: I'm a romantic in denial :)
I think I have decided what to for Valentines day: I'm going to send a bunch of tulips to his job... I think or maybe to his house, haven't really decided yet :)
No, I think to his house is better....

I am beginning to realize that I am quite the romantic. When we had dinner on Saturday (candles and wines...) I didn't feel as uncomfortable as I usually do in that situation.

Went to Franska Matsalen with Dr C on Friday. It wasn't really all that great. The food was ok and the service was actually really bad from time to time. We started with a glass of champagne and the it took such a long time before we could even order. When I pay 100 euros for a dinner I do expect quite good service. For example I don't think I saw "our" waitress smile even once... instead she started yelling at another waitress in front of the entire restaurant... so not ok!

But we had a nice time. He has a way of looking at me and smiling that makes me go weak to my knees - good thing I was sitting down during dinner ;)
Afterwards we went back to my place and had a drink and then off to bed. He was supposed to play squash the next day. He left and I stayed in bed for a while longer.
Saturday afternoon I went over to his place and we (well I) made dinner. He was invited to a party arranged by his volleyball club. We met up with two of his friends, both of them really nice, and went to the party. There were mostly guys there so the two others were quite disappointed so we left early. Went onto Marie Laveau, quite nice bar actually, for some drinks.

Today I've spent most of the day in bed, his bed, working on the Sundaypapers crossword.
Now I'm matching Charlie's Angels II - enough entertainment for a Sunday night I think.

And I've also closed my account on the internet dating site. So we'll see what happens...

Take care

Song of the day: Ordinary People - John Legend

A table for two

Seems like the dinner at Franska Matsalen will be just me and Dr C. Asked him about it yesterday and he didn't seem to be all against the idea.
As I came home from the gym yesterday I saw that he had called. Was happy and called him back. Him and his brother had had dinner and he wanted me to join them. That was sweet I think. I asked him to give me a raincheck and he agreed.
I hope he is still on for the dinner on Friday. Maybe then I'll have the opportunity to start "The Talk".
Applied for a really cool job today. I so hope I get it because I'm so sick of being at home all the time. I've been unemploied for 1 month now - I can't belive people who do this for years. I would go crazy!!!

Well, I'll better start focusing on something other that Dr C for the rest of the night :)

Take care
Song of the day: A Bad Bad thing - Chris Isaak

Clumsy...

I'm not the only clumsy one: Read in the paper today about a guy in Fitzwilliams museum in Cambridge who stumbled on his shoelace and fell. While falling he dragged down some priceless vases from the Qingdynasty... Actually, every time I'm in a museum I keep wondering what would happen if I'd break something. Nothing happened to this guy, apart from the shame and disgrace :)

I just watched the ending of the dumbest TV-show I've ever seen. It's called "7th Heaven" and is about a priests family....all about family values and no sex before marriage and such.
Anyway, it was about Valentines Day celebrations. So I realized that Valentines is coming up soon. Am I supposed to do something for Dr C??? He used to live in the US where Valentines is a huge deal.
I've never celebrated Valentine when I've been in a relationship. Nor did I do the "Bitter Single Woman"- thing and gathered my girls to burn ex-boyfriends stuff and nag about being single.
So what does he expect? I could maybe send flowers to his job. That's always nice and kind of fun or I can take him out to dinner. Or maybe he will take me out...That would be nice.
But what if I do this big thing and he does nothing. How embarrassed wouldn't I be then?!?!

Yhe weekend was very nice. Was out with Hannah on Saturday, just spent the evening catching up at Sturehof.
This Friday we are going to have dinner at Franska Matsalen at the Grand Hotel. It's really expensive but it's probably worth it. It's supposed to be one of the best restaurants in town and they are closing for good by the end of February. Maybe I should ask Dr C to join us. If he comes he will be the only man there :) He'll probably enjoy that...

Take care

Song of the day: A Long Walk - Jill Scott

A good laugh

I do believe you need at least one a day. Have had a few good laughs this last week :) First on Wednesday night when I was having dinner, wine and some very nice talks with Tove at Bistro Jarl. We then went on to Riche for a few drinks.

I realized that 20-something men have turned it into a kind of sport to try to pick up 30-something women. I mean I don't in general mind people trying to pick each other up in bars and nightclubs, not at all actually, but a 20-something guy is not really "my cup of tea"...
Two brothers were after Tove and myself and they kept saying this like "I think you're hot even if you are older" OK, a bit of advice: Few women like to be reminded of their age, especially by someone younger. And no, you won't be getting any by doing just that!

I'm planning for the annual summer holiday. This year, if I get my way, we will be renting a boat, a penichette, and cruise on the canals and rivers of France. I'm not really a boat person but on a river land is close so if anything happens I can swim to shore and safety. Seriously, if they rent it to people who have absolutely no experience it can't be that hard...
There so many parts of France I haven't seen yet. I'd love to see the castles of Loire or enjoy the supposedly amazing food in Burgundy.

Had another good laugh yesterday. I was on my way back from the optician, walking by one of the poshest restaurants in town, all suit-and-tie-business-lunches. I carried 50 tulips wrapped in paper. Just in front of me a woman slips on an icy spot and falls over. Some suit and tie-guys inside the restaurant stopped eating and watched her struggle to get up. I went up to her to try to help her, but the only result was that I slipped and fell too...Tulips flying all over as I landed on top of her. By this time two of the men from inside the restaurant and one waiter comes running out to help us both up. They where smiling, I suppose it must have looked kind of fun. I got up and started picking up my tulips, one of the men helped me. The woman asked if they could get her a cab. The waiter guy, the perfect gentleman said: Of course and escorted us into the restaurant where he offered us a cup of coffee and a chance to warm up. As I was leaving, quite embarrassed, one of the men came running after me with the last tulip that he had found. He said: "Your flower, miss! Wouldn't want you to be without it." And as he turns around to walk back into the restaurant HE slips on the same icy spot. The waiter come running back outside but this guy gets up, quite dignified and says: "May I suggest some sand on that spot."
We all got quite a good laugh out of that :)

Today I'm going to clean my apartment and I have found two jobs I'm going to apply for and then I need to write a marketing plan for My Own Company....

Take care!

Song of the day: Outrageous - Artful Dodger

I-Tunes rocks :)

Got this from Jezz's blogg:

First open Itunes or which ever music program you use then answer honestly:

- How many songs? 720
Then sort by
title:
First song: (Sex) Love Is What We're Makin' - R Kelly
Last song: Your Love Is King - Will Young

length:
Shortest: Bionic Woman (Interlude) - Robyn 0:16
Longest: Purple Rain - Prince 8:40

Album:
First: 3D - TLC
Last: Ultra - Depeche Mode

Artist:
First: 10 cc
Last: Xibit

Five most played:
1. Dirrty - Christina Aguilera (I'm embarrassed)
2. Cry Me a River - Justin Timberlake (WHAT?!?!?!)
3. Alright - John Legend (finally :))
4. La Bomba - Ricky Martin (well, he is hot but still....)
5. Yeah - Usher feat. Lil' John (at least you can dance to it)

Let I-Tunes choose a random song:
Good Riddance (Time of your life) - Green Day (my dignity is saved ;))

Search by:

"sex" found 6 songs
"love" found 33 songs
"death" found 0 songs
"you" found 68 songs
"chewbacca"found 0 songs

Take care
Song of the day: Isn't there Someone - Luther Vandross

A lump in my throat

Have had a lump in my throat all day today. A dear friend of mine lost her mother last night. She wrote the most amazingly beautiful email to all of us. I know she'll be fine, she is a lot stronger than she knows but it's still so sad.

I, on the other hand, made my second modeling appearance today, as a man actually :) It's for a medical magazine - they are going to show how hard it is to tell the difference between women and men. The photographer told me I looked like a gangster rapper. I know he meant it in a good way.
It was really fun! And I made some money which I obviously spent almost immediately (I did mention that I have some shopping issues, didn't I?!?!) on warmer winter boots. Winter is back in Stockholm and with a vengeance...it's absolutely freezing, windy and the snow is now falling sideways. Hate that!

Had lunch with Dr C on Wednesday. We went to this Lebanese restaurant and he got sick as we where leaving... We had a nice time during lunch though and at moments like these I can't imagine being without him...
I hope I won't have to....

Meet the parents...

Spent Friday at Locanda with M. She always calls when she needs something and this time she wanted to know why she and her boyfriend wasn't invited to the birthday party on Saturday night. It's not my party so how would I know. Oscar isn't the most focused person so I think he just sent out some random invitations and hoped world would be passed around. I told her she was most probably welcome to come but they ended up not going...
The restaurant was ok, the service was extremely slow. I mean it is not ok for it to take an hour from finishing the maincourse until asked if we wanted to order dessert... The food was ok but the portions were quite small. They do, however, have a very large selections of drinks so if I go back it'll be for the drinks not the food.

Saturday was Oscars party. It was nice but some of his friends are really strange. They have quite... Liberal opinions about most things and we don't always see eye to eye.
It was cool to see Ylva and Fredrik there, especially since they are about to have another baby. According to the doctor the baby was supposed to come on Saturday...

I left early to go and see Dr C. He was away all day Saturday playing a volleyball game. We spent the evening watching a horrible series, something about a serial killer who killed women by leaving spiders in their beds... Horrible and it gave me nightmares.

Sunday we got up quite late and I was trying to solve a Sudoku, you know one of those puzzles with numbers in them. They are quite addictive :)
So suddenly he tells me that his parents are coming over. They have been to IKEA and are dropping of some stuff. Apparently it was a bit more than that. His brother was turning 30 and his parents were coming over for dinner and birthday cake. If he had told me that I would have left... But no, there I am in the same clothes as the day before, no make up and his mum walks in...I don't think she was very impressed! His parents seems nice though and his brother is really cool. We had dinner, quite awkward I must admit. And then we build a dresser and two bookshelf he bought.
After they left we cleaned the place (or he cleaned and I was working on that d*mn sudoku) and then off to bed.

All and all, the weekend was nice. No Talk but like HappyButterfly said; I'm not sure if I'm ready for the answer. And like they say: If you don't want to know - don't ask :)

I'll just go with the flow and see where it takes me...

Take care!

Song of the day: Can't get you off my mind - Lenny Kravitz

All made up

Went to MAC yesterday for a make up event. It was really nice to meet all of the Beautyqueen again, some old friend and some new ones.
(Beautyqueen VIP is one of the Shortcut best clubs. Have actually met some of my dearest friends through Shortcut).

Anyway, my makeup theme was all about fab glam and color. The make upartist worked with blue, purple and black. I was very happy with the result so I ended up buying most of the eyeshadows she used on me. "If I want it, I need it" ;)

Stepbro's mum got me an Andrea Bocelli cd for Christmas. I don't mind Andrea Bocelli but it's not really my type of music so I changed it yesterday and got Mary J Blige - The Breakthrough instead. It's really great and she is so fab.

This week has been all about work. Met with Peder, my mentor, on Tuesday. I took him out for lunch and he has new great ideas for me that I'm looking into. Then I've spent most of the time around the house writing my business plan and updating my cv. I tend to spend a lot of time on layout and ...less time on contence. Must do something about that....

Wednesday I got a surprise call from a friend I haven't seen in ages. It was an nice surprise so we are going out for dinner tonight. I can't help wondering what she wants. She is the type of person that only calls when she needs something from you. And she is an expert in forgetting favors rendered.....Well, will be interesting too see what's up.
This is part of the reason why we really haven't seen eachother in a while. I got sick of helping her out and never getting anything in return. She and her boyfriend are experts in complaining about what other people do and don't but that they should arrange something or invite people over.... would never happen.
Anyway, we are trying this new restaurant tonight that has gotten great reviews, Locanda. I'll get back to you on the restaurant.
Tomorrow Oscar is having his 35th birthdayparty. So today I must find a nice gift for him. He likes warhistory and fantasybooks. I thought I'd pick up a dvd of a book for him.

Oh, my new lamp is up. After a few attempts I got it up. It's just one small problem. If someone really tall comes over like Dr C, they will hit their head. I can barely walk under the lamp and I'm only 1m69cm.... But I like the lamp and the light in my apartment is som much better than before :)

No Talk updates to report. Haven't seen Dr C this week since we both have been busy in the evenings. But next time I see him I'll get some wine in me to work up a nerve and bring it up.

Ok, better get on with everything now.

Take care

Song of the day: Gonna Breakthrough - Mary J Blige

A Dr C-weekend :)

Spent almost all weekend with Dr C.
Friday me and sis were supposed to got to NK and their annual sale but when we got there and saw the queue going all around the block we decided not to....
Instead we met up with Henrik and went to an art exhibition (Dutch painters)instead and then we had a late lunch with some wine :)
On my way home I rented 2 movies (De-Lovely and Collateral 3,5/5) when Dr C suddenly called. He was back from his skiing and was on his way to pick up some sushi. He asked if I wanted to bring the movies and come over to his place for sushi.
We had a nice time watching Collateral and eating sushi from the place on the corner. Didn't have the nerve to bring up The Talk, maybe I need to drink some wine first ;)

Saturday he had his Portuguese exam so he got up at 7.30 which is crazy in a Saturday. Sent me a textmessage asking if we could have lunch after he was done.
I went home to change clothes and shower and went back into town for lunch. He wanted carpaccio so we went to this Italian place. It was by far the worst food I've ever had!! And to make matters worse the actually charged extra for the clothes check. I really hate when they do that at restaurants. I mean I pay enough for the food and wine and then I have to pay to leave my jacket. AND they don't even give you the choice.... it's mandatory!

After lunch we took a walk around town, I had to pick up some wine for the movienight at Jocke's place. Asked Dr C if he wanted to join us and he said yes. I think he had a nice time.
We went out to Jocke's, he lives quite far from town, and went shopping for food and then back to his place and made dinner. Or I made dinner and the guys watched me....

We watched Sin City (3/5), is was cool but a bit to much violence for me.

On Sunday we got up quite late and made brunch: pancakes, eggs and bacon. And then we watched War of the Worlds (2/5) and Lord of the Rings - The Return of the King (4,5/5) I love that movie! We had a late dinner and then he went home.
I do enjoy being on my own and after a whole weekend with I'm it was actually nice to be left alone. At least for a while now I miss him :)

Today I'm finally putting my new lamp up and the I'm going to write my business plan for My Own Company and then I'm going to clean my apartment. Or at least that is my plan for the day. I'll see how far I'll get :)

"It doesn't matter how big or small you are, what matters is your time and what you make of it"

Take care

Song of the day: If you all get to heaven - Terence Trent D'Arby

Exclusivity

How do you know when you're dating exclusively??

I know for a fact that Dr C is still logging on to the dating website where we met. How do I know? Well, I admit I log on to... but only because I know that he is logging on there. Logical huh?!?!
I check and if he has been online then I think it is ok for me to log on too, that is if he has been online.
I wonder if he is looking for someone else. I know for a fact that he was online today AND he is away skiing in his parents house in the mountains. So, do they have internet access in the house or did he go out of his way to find it??? If he went out of his way exactly why?? Maybe I should just end it here and now so he won't hurt me that bad. I would so miss him if we stopped seeing eachother but I do not want to hear the words "I have found someone else..." I miss him now and he is just away skiing with is family...

I suppose we should have The Talk. My best friend Carl, who is from the US, always tells me about The Talk: it's apparently after the 5th date ( that we passed months ago) you should talk about the future of the relationship and decide if you should be exclusive or date others.
We have not had The Talk yet, wonder if we ever will. We do, however, have sleepovers at least twice a week. He has met most of my friends and my parents. At New Years he was at another party but came over to our party at 4 o'clock in the morning and then we spent the night at my parents place. He stayed on the next day and helped us clean up the place.

A thought just struck me: maybe he is checking the website to see if I still log on... Just takes a little work and you can check without actually having to log on.

Shit, I supposed I need to bring this up but I don't know how, where and when. The best way might be over dinner after some wine at my place so if he dumps me I won't need to get on the subway home.
Oh yes, I love exploring the more paranoid side of myself.

Well, if dumps me I will always remember him fondly *not*

Take care

Song of the day: Hung Up - Madonna

Paris...

I knew it. I should be in Paris :)

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris. The art, the fashion, the wine, the men! Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park... You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

What City Do You Belong In?

A pleasant start

of 2006. The party on New years was great! We got started with all the shopping around lunch. Then back to my parents place to cook. I got out of the shower at 7.45 pm and the first guests arrived at 8. The food was very nice. We had two different smoked salmon sandwiched, two pie (minced meat and vegetables) and mushroomsoup. And also ton and tons of booze ;) After all the theme was "Cocktails"...
And midnight we went outside to check out the fireworks and then we walzed, it's a silly tradition we have. I really don't know how it started but we always walz just after midnight on New years...
Dr C arrive at 4 am when most people already left but he and I stayed up till 5 and then we went to bed too. He helped clean the house the next day - so now he has met my parents for real.

Later sis, Dr C, myself and 2 other friends went to the movies and saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. I'd give it a 3/5. Spent the night at Dr C's place. I like him :)

Today I've done everything but the one thing I should do... I've rearranged my closet, cleaned the kitchen and some laundry so tomorrow there are no excuses. I have to start writing a proposal for a fashion show and seriously look for a new part time job. I'm thinking about waitressing again. The downside with the restaurant business is the workhours... mostly at night. But it's fun... well I'll think about it.

One cool thing is that I've sent my first invoice :) Should have the money by the end of this week.
I've mailed Peder, my mentor, and invited him for lunch on me as a thank you for all his help.

Saturday we are having a movienight at Jocke's place. Could be fun, he has apparently a whole bunch of new dvds that I haven't seen.

So, tomorrow I'll be the focused business woman I have to be. Or at least I'll try. "Fake it 'till you make it"

Take care!

Song of the day: Te amo, corazon - Prince